oh my gosh no.

My school is going to be inspected,
using most of the data through parents.

That's fine and all,
but I honestly I really can't bare it.
The whole school may be all good and perfect,
but let me tell you what happened on the first day back that really isn't:

1. Someone bullied me verbally and took my Fanta without me noticing
(I don't tell since I feel like a 'snake as they call it)

2. I got insulted and intimidated in 2nd period for bringing one of my sown gifts,
that I was going to give to someone and they rejected it (and now I'm giving it to my best friend then)

3. I suffer from depression and I personally get paranoid allot about getting in trouble in school,
and there is ALLOT of over thinking in my mind because of the whole 'living and future.

I'm not saying my school is the worst at teaching,
but the students don't really listen.
We get our intelligence marked on memory,
and good memory is not something I have.

Day after day, I feel more worse and wounded,
like the school is a battlefield and learning and subjects is our base.
And I come back covered in my pitiful tears as I retreat to not lose.
If I try to speak out, I just get called over that I'm wrong and surrender not knowing why.

I just feel helpless sometimes,
like barely anyone is going to agree with me.
So I crawl up into a ball and sob until this term is done.

Getting excited for school was really exaggerated.
I really can't learn when the class won't let the teacher talk.
So I don't really learn what I want to.